My husband calls me sometimes an imitation Yankee, since I have been Americanised living in the USA for 8 years. Our American-British debates who is better, higher or more superior, amuse me quite a lot. Even though, I am living in the UK full time now, the USA will always remain my second home. Surprisingly, I have always felt like home there, from day one, even when I first came over here.
I have indeed Americanised over this significant period of time while living in the land of opportunities.
I fell in love with the idea that America has always represented: freedom, equality, and prosperity. It is a place where people bring to life their most cherished dreams. I am being poetic here but I truly love this country, its spirit, its culture and people. It does have its problems, but they are minuscule and insignificant compared to third world countries, like Ukraine (my native country), where corruption, desperation and poverty govern life. It is a sad reality of my native country.
I am so grateful that my American saga of going through immigration journey has come to a successful end and I am an American Citizen! So, I am not an imitation Yankee, but the real one.
Living in the USA has been such an extraordinary experience for me in every possible way and meaning. Besides numerous life lessons on responsibility, hard working ethics, self-reliance, problem-solving, independence, failures and mistakes, my biggest shift is in my personal growth and my awareness, which has allowed the possibility of all those lessons and realisations; and invited all of the great things and people in my life.
I heard the phrase “your inner world creates your outer world” about 5–6 years ago. It really stuck with me. I couldn’t make up my mind in comprehending the meaning of that statement.
What does my “inner world” mean? To be really honest, I never even bothered really understanding that phrase at the beginning of my personal growth journey. I just liked it. It sounded fancy and kind of poetic. I was repeating the phrase like a parrot without attempting to live it and see what it means to be creating my life from within.
There was another phase that captured my imagination “you are the creator of your life”. I kept repeating it. It was a promising concept, but I couldn’t find a way to benefit from it. However, it developed my appetite for more of those inspiring ideas. I became hungry.
What happens when you are really hungry, you eat a lot. So, I started to devour those personal growth concepts and principles. They mesmerised me.
I kept collecting the inspirational quotes and absorbing all the beautiful and promising ideas. I even went as far as writing a book. When I say write, I mean, copy all the ideas and words of successful people, authors, psychologists and philosophers. It was a great content, but no personal reflections, no personal experience, so as a book, it was rubbish to say the least. Disorganised, dry, and uninteresting. Thankfully, I never published it
The learning did not really satisfy my hunger. My life was a mess. I was at a job I wasn’t enjoying, I was unhappy in my personal life, I wasn’t at harmony with myself. I wasn’t applying any of the ideas that I was passionately repeating all the time.
What happened was: I was talking about the notions of self-empowerment, unlimited potential, abundance, fulfilment and freedom, yet I was feeling down, unworthy, frustrated, financially struggling. My reality was very far from my visions.
Did I really have crystal clear vision back then? Probably not..
I remember, my thoughts were not uplifting and positive. I was thinking about what I was focusing on, and I was focusing on what I was thinking about. It was kind of like an unconscious vicious circle that kept me trapped in my life. But in fact, I was trapped within. Because later on I came to a liberating realisation that my inner world created my outer world. There is a difference between knowing something and living it.
My life began to change when I really started going within. Not just talking but walking. Sometimes, it was as simple as changing the trajectory of my thinking.
In my case, I started entertaining thoughts that made me happy as opposed to those that were reiterating my depressive reality. Life is really magnificent when you understand its meaning and the laws it is governed by.
One of my favourite quotes of all times was said by Neale Donald Walcsh, “If you fail to go within, you will go without”
I was thinking about it, wrestling with it in initially futile attempts of finding out how to implement it…
It is the most captivating and at the same time perplexing phenomenon in personal growth.
It is at the same time a complicated topic, since how do I really get within?
What are the ways to get there? Through meditation, deep focused thinking, or through stimulation of my brain neuro-activity?
Or on the contrary, letting the higher power work through me?
I suppose, a little bit of everything.
I realised that what going within really means is connecting with my higher power, my higher consciousness, my soul force, the place where my dreams and aspirations lie, facing my demons that create the resistance towards me living into my full potential.
Going within is learning how the learnt concepts could be applied in my life, how I can benefit from them, how I can utilise them to enrich my life.
Does it mean having knowledge about the world? Perhaps. Why not? Smart people are always in fashion. But the key here is in the ability to utilise that knowledge.
In the information age we live in, ideas is the new currency and creativity is the new wealth. However, it is not really about what you know; it is about what you do about it.
Does having knowledge about myself mean understanding the inner resistance that hinders the realisation of my inner aspirations? Absolutely!
One of the powerful quotes by Carl Jung, “Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will direct your life and you will call it fate”.
We have to really reflect and understand our points of resistance. It is visible to see when we think about our dreams and aspirations, and we hear “yeah, buts” coming up with very “reasonable” objections why it is impossible and cannot be done. So, going within also means facing our own demons, and our fears, not allowing them take over our decisions and our life.
However if you choose to understand and implement this concept of going within, it carries the promise of transformation. Going within is checking in with yourself to better understand yourself; it is spending time in a deep focused thinking and reflecting that draws insightful solutions to existing challenges and creates the future through visioning or Imagineering.
The more I have “me” time, the more I realise how my mind expands and how my self-awareness grows. The world doesn’t really give us what we want; it gives us who we are. And the way to figure out who we are is by going within while embracing and owning our light and darkness, so we can grow in light and control the darkness.